{"id":4558,"date":"2021-05-17T16:53:08","date_gmt":"2021-05-17T20:53:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/?p=4558"},"modified":"2021-05-18T19:52:21","modified_gmt":"2021-05-18T23:52:21","slug":"everything-you-write-is-the-most-important-thing-you-write","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/2021\/05\/17\/everything-you-write-is-the-most-important-thing-you-write\/","title":{"rendered":"Everything You Write Is the Most Important Thing You Write"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

As the publication date for Our Endless and Proper Work<\/i> draws near, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve been thinking a lot about this quote from the actor Mads Mikkelsen<\/a>:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00e2\u20ac\u0153My approach to what I do in my job\u00e2\u20ac\u201dand it might even be the approach to my life\u00e2\u20ac\u201dis that everything I do is the most important thing I do. Whether it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s a play or the next film.\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 I know it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s not going to be the most important thing, and it might not be close to being the best, but I have to make it the most important thing. That means I will be ambitious with my job and not with my career. That\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s a very big difference, because if I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m ambitious with my career, everything I do now is just stepping-stones leading to something \u00e2\u20ac\u201d a goal I might never reach, and so everything will be disappointing. But if I make everything important, then eventually it will become a career. Big or small, we don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t know. But at least everything was important.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

What would it be like, I wonder, to fully live that way? What would it be like, in particular, to write that way? Without looking past the computer screen and the notebook page and setting your gaze on the potential book deal\u00e2\u20ac\u201dor, if you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve already got a book deal, on what reviewers will think of it. Dwelling on what this book, which isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t even done yet, might<\/i> do for you in the future<\/i>, instead of concentrating on what you need to do with it right now<\/i>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What do I need to figure out right now, as I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m trying to write these pages? That\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s where I have to put my attention. Ideally, I shouldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t even speculate on what I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll do with that hard-won knowledge once I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve acquired it, because that might just increase the difficulty of learning what I need to learn right now. Later, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve finally put the story together the way it needs to be put together, I can carry what I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve learned forward into the unknown. Today, sitting at my keyboard, or with my notebook, this unsolved mystery is the most important project I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve got going. It won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be any help to me tomorrow if I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t move forward with it today.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can get into that state intermittently, but it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s hard to maintain\u00e2\u20ac\u201dand it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s not always the imagined future that distracts me. Sometimes it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s the past, and I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t mean the useful parts of the past that might actually inform a particular piece of writing. Sometimes it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s the million and one things going on around me in the present. And there\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s really nothing else I can do but to push through all that until, if I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m lucky, I can get back to that moment when the only thing in front of me is the question I need to answer today, and the process of answering it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

One thing I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m gradually beginning to understand more clearly is how to look at writing as a process<\/i> rather than a product<\/i>. Obviously, if you want to make any kind of living as a writer, even as a side gig, you have to give product some consideration; at the very least, you need to come up with something that can be published and purchased. But that\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s just what you need to produce in order to participate in the publishing world, the market-driven world, the economic world. Beyond that, what was the book\/story\/essay\/poem you wrote trying to tell you about yourself? And why did you need to be told that at that moment?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stop thinking about becoming a famous writer, or a bestselling writer. It will either happen or it won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t, and the outcome depends on so many variables beyond your control that dwelling on it becomes counterproductive. Similarly, stop telling yourself you could never<\/i> make it as a writer. You actually do have some control over that outcome, and you exert that control every time you engage in catastrophic speculation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Instead, be ambitious with the blank space right in front of you. How will you fill it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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It has been, some of you will notice, a while since the last newsletter. So clearly I need to learn more keenly the lesson of concentrating on filling the blank space in front of me\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 and I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve been reminded, over the last few weeks, that it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s as important to say no to a lot of work (and to a lot of things that aren\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t work) so you have the freedom to say yes to the work that truly matters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So when Mads Mikkelsen says \u00e2\u20ac\u0153everything I do is the most important thing I do,\u00e2\u20ac\u009d I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t believe that he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s saying you have to do whatever comes along and treat it as if it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s the most important thing in the world. You have to look at your options and, whenever possible, pick the work that speaks most clearly to you. As he explains, though, that doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t always mean the work that will \u00e2\u20ac\u0153advance your career,\u00e2\u20ac\u009d because if you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re thinking along those lines, you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve already got a preconceived notion of what your career will be like, when you need to make room for spontaneous discovery.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Of course, in the broader, market-driven world, the economic world, most of us don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t possess the privilege to operate in spontaneous discovery mode all the time. Sometimes we have to take whatever comes along because we have needs, and to fulfill needs we need money, and to get the money we need to do the work. If we write at all, it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s because we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re carving out pockets of time and space within that economic reality, moments in which we are no longer beholden to anyone else and can follow our creative impulses wherever they may lead.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Why not, given how rare such freedom is, exercise it to the fullest, whenever you can? Seen in that light, everything you write is the most important thing you write because it is in the writing that you are most yourself. You are, in effect, creating yourself, inching toward the best possible version of yourself, along with whatever ends up in the manuscript.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d be the first to admit: As firmly as I believe that, it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s still intimidating as hell.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This post was first published in “Destroy Your Safe and Happy Lives,” a newsletter I’ve been writing since 2018. If you’d like to subscribe and get every new installment delivered to your email (free!), you can do that here<\/a><\/i>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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