{"id":3029,"date":"2013-10-20T22:01:27","date_gmt":"2013-10-21T02:01:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/?p=3029"},"modified":"2015-11-10T11:12:16","modified_gmt":"2015-11-10T15:12:16","slug":"life-stories-46-victoria-loustalot","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/2013\/10\/20\/life-stories-46-victoria-loustalot\/","title":{"rendered":"Life Stories #46: Victoria Loustalot"},"content":{"rendered":"
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In this episode of Life Stories<\/i>, the podcast series where I talk to memoir writers about their lives and the art of writing memoir, Victoria Loustalot<\/a> opens up about This Is How You Say Goodbye<\/i><\/a>, in which she looks back at her childhood memories of her father—who came out as both gay and HIV-positive when she was four years old—and her attempts as an adult, years after his death, to understand his life better. Loustalot and I spoke shortly after she’d done an event with Alysia Abbott<\/a>, another Life Stories<\/i> guest who’s written about having a HIV+ father, and so we discussed why stories like theirs (there’s also the recent memoir by Marco Roth<\/a>) are appearing with greater frequency now. I also asked her about the alleged “cathartic” aspects of memoir writing:<\/p>\n

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“Memoir is not an autobiography, it’s not your life story. Memoir is memory, and to me, it’s\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 If you’re writing a memoir, it’s a reflection on a period of time. Just that memory, just that time, nothing else. And it can’t be too raw. You have to be ready to talk about that memory, and I think sometimes people try to start memoirs before they’re really ready. I don’t think the memoir can do the work of the healing; I think you have to be well on your way to healing\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 or at least have sort of a solid foundation, that you’ve taken care of some of the superficial emotional heartache of the issue, because when you do sit down to write a memoir, it brings up all these other things that you never even considered.”<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Writing This Is How You Say Goodbye<\/i> “both deepened the loss and set it free,” Loustalot added. “It deepened the loss because I got to know my father better through this book, and I also got to know the people who loved him better, and so getting to know him better, I loved him even more.” Yet that same process also reinforced his absence in her life… and, ultimately, instilled in her a fierce rejection of the sort of secrets that shaped her parents’ early marriage.<\/p>\n

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When Victoria Loustalot was four years old, her father told her mother that he was both gay and HIV-positive. He killed himself when she was 11, before AIDS could fully destroy his health. Years later, in an effort to understand the man she barely knew growing up, Victoria would visit some of the foreign cities where he lived, and where he’d once promised to take her. Along the way, she came to some important conclusions about her own emotional well-being. She describes both her childhood and that adult journey in her memoir, This Is How You Say Goodbye.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[272],"tags":[132,305,651,650],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3029"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3029"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3029\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3777,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3029\/revisions\/3777"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3029"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3029"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/beatrice.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3029"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}